you dont know how many times i wish i was dead by Wtfjaya, literature
Literature
you dont know how many times i wish i was dead
all these pain were never gone
deep in heart
what is real
things i never accepted
things you have said
held me down
made me what i am
full of ugly anger
and hatred for you
i cry and cut
died everyday
trying to be new
but all i see is you weighing me down
i could have
picked myself up
but you are strong
strong in actions
stronger in words
i am still weak
trying to get up
i am sorry
but this
is not the
end
Patterns are changing
colors are fading
everything is distant
I trace the lines
but it never ends
flowers and shells
alternate well;
it stop and goes.
red and blue
both of it grows
smoke and fire
slowly dies down
the wood is rough
it is also tough
patterns are beautiful
hammers are too.
steel and soft.
Judge and be sold
be careful
I am not perfect
neither are you
but you judge
like you know me
better than me
Useless. that's what you say
I am
stupid is what I am
to believe your lies
I am not proud
of what you tell me
I have let you
take over me
Manipulate me
say thing to me
let me believe what you
said
affected me
lied to me
Pathetic.Vain.Conceited
that's what you are
never let you be me
weep away little child
weep your problems
shed a tear
cry out loud
helps you in anyway
your lovely heart broken
or lost in your fears
weep out,weep out
and you will be ok
weep out little one
it's fine
you're alone
no one will hear you
don't keep your problems to your own
whisper to your
pillow
and close your eyes
weep out,weep out
keeps your burden away
Strawberries
Strawberries are sweet and red
Like blood but bittersweet
like victory and revenge.
I bite and taste love
and loathe and death
like dirt with rind
I savored it but nothing last
like happiness and memories
like relationships
and life
strawberries are sweet and red
like blood but bittersweet
like victory and revenge
like life
like nothing
Crying is nothing
But red tears came
A broken heart surrendered
A tired mind remain
Agony is here
As I cut my blood
I hang on to dear life
But then I give up
Life is but without colors
And happiness is what I lack then
Emotions so powered
But no glass to fill them
My life rush through days
But nothing interesting
Seems to happen
Your life so serene
Mine, dull
Continue to live
But here I stop
you dont know how many times i wish i was dead by Wtfjaya, literature
Literature
you dont know how many times i wish i was dead
all these pain were never gone
deep in heart
what is real
things i never accepted
things you have said
held me down
made me what i am
full of ugly anger
and hatred for you
i cry and cut
died everyday
trying to be new
but all i see is you weighing me down
i could have
picked myself up
but you are strong
strong in actions
stronger in words
i am still weak
trying to get up
i am sorry
but this
is not the
end
Patterns are changing
colors are fading
everything is distant
I trace the lines
but it never ends
flowers and shells
alternate well;
it stop and goes.
red and blue
both of it grows
smoke and fire
slowly dies down
the wood is rough
it is also tough
patterns are beautiful
hammers are too.
steel and soft.
Judge and be sold
be careful
I am not perfect
neither are you
but you judge
like you know me
better than me
Useless. that's what you say
I am
stupid is what I am
to believe your lies
I am not proud
of what you tell me
I have let you
take over me
Manipulate me
say thing to me
let me believe what you
said
affected me
lied to me
Pathetic.Vain.Conceited
that's what you are
never let you be me
weep away little child
weep your problems
shed a tear
cry out loud
helps you in anyway
your lovely heart broken
or lost in your fears
weep out,weep out
and you will be ok
weep out little one
it's fine
you're alone
no one will hear you
don't keep your problems to your own
whisper to your
pillow
and close your eyes
weep out,weep out
keeps your burden away
Strawberries
Strawberries are sweet and red
Like blood but bittersweet
like victory and revenge.
I bite and taste love
and loathe and death
like dirt with rind
I savored it but nothing last
like happiness and memories
like relationships
and life
strawberries are sweet and red
like blood but bittersweet
like victory and revenge
like life
like nothing
Crying is nothing
But red tears came
A broken heart surrendered
A tired mind remain
Agony is here
As I cut my blood
I hang on to dear life
But then I give up
Life is but without colors
And happiness is what I lack then
Emotions so powered
But no glass to fill them
My life rush through days
But nothing interesting
Seems to happen
Your life so serene
Mine, dull
Continue to live
But here I stop
my name is jaya rose i like blood my favorite colors are black,white and the blood of my enemies my favorite drink is the blood of my enemies my favorite music is the cry of my enemies. if you want to ask me more then ask me. i am very interesting.
Favourite Movies
alot of movies mostly,horror,gore,war and musicals
im kinda thinkig of changing my id to jayarose my name i dont know reallty....
and i really cant go to DA that much because have slooow internet it sucks
i dont what else to say really...
more later
Jaya Rose
so today i went to Jan's house
got some dvds and borrower anime dvds
really nice one i already read the manga versions
i also made a new poem
and took pictures
i might upload them tomorrow to lazy to do them today
i also made a new painting
it's called Zipper face
took a pic of it already and might be uploaded with my other pics tom
School Starts on Wendsday will start wacting ALOT of movies tom
will be a junior yay!
More later